Sep 29, 2019

Day 84 of 365: Set backs

(Para la versión en castellano, pinche aquí).

I haven't written about my 1 year of sober socialising for a while, so here I am.

I have been doing pretty well, but it doesn't take a genius after reading the title to figure out that I had a couple of set backs.

The first, a while ago, after having been out with a friend, sober socialising, we stopped literally a few meters away from home to grab something to it, so I thought it was safe to have a glass of wine. The problem is that I didn't stop at that. I was on my way home, I was eating and I was with a trusted friend. What could go wrong? Not much, but it did. I decided to have a 2nd glass of wine. Luckily it stopped at that.

The next morning I had a terrible hangover, enough to remind me why I'm going this.

It all went ok again after that until I recently went on a holiday with a friend. Again, I started only drinking with food but, what the hell, I'm on holiday, with someone I trust, away from the drama that had prompt me to decide to sober socialise, so, again, what could go wrong?

Well, let's say I don't remember getting to our apartment on the first night of the holiday and that scared the shit out of me.

Still, I did have the odd drink when we went out for the rest of the holiday, more than if I was back home, but still mixing it at least to equal parts with non alcoholic drinks.

What has this taught me? (Because beating myself up about it wasn't going to achieve anything)

Mainly that I can't leave my guard down, even if the circumstances seem safe. If  the thought "what could go wrong?" crosses my mind I should stay even more alert than usual.

Have you experienced set backs in your sobriety projects? How did they make you feel? And even more importantly, what have you done to prevent them? 

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